Miracle in the Womb

It’s been quiet over here and here’s why... we are expecting! I’d loved to share with you a glimpse into what the past few months have looked like for us.

What a journey 2020 has been. It’s been filled with roller coaster of emotions. This pregnancy started off normal. Morning sickness kicked in hard and exhaustion kicked my butt.

The second week in January, we had a dating ultrasound. I have had them before with my other pregnancies, but this one was different. What should have taken only a few minutes, took almost an hour. I knew something wasn’t right. Two days later we got a call that flipped our world upside down.

Our midwife called to share that something had been on the ultrasound - our baby had Trisomy 18 (Edwards Syndrome). This meant our baby would have an extra 18th chromosome. We were told that our baby would most likely pass away before I would give birth or would pass away shortly after delivery. There was a 5% chance he would survive his first year.

Looking back, I couldn’t process what my midwife was saying. I asked her the same questions over and over. After the call ended, I fell to the floor and cried. I cried so hard I could hardly catch my breath.

I had gotten the call right as my husband Carl was walking out the door to catch a flight for a business trip. I could barely tell him what was wrong. Once I caught my breath and was able to explain what I was told, we sat together with tears in our eyes, not sure what the future would hold.

We sat together, prayed, and decided whatever the outcome, we would continue to praise God in it all. We would not let this destroy our faith, our marriage, or our family. We wanted God to use this story as testament of who He is.

We had an appointment with our midwife to discuss what the next steps would be. She took more blood to test it for any other syndromes. We had to wait to our 20-week ultrasound to find out the what we were exactly facing.

Over the next few weeks, Carl and I processed in different ways. We tried to give each other patience and space to grieve and mentally figure out what to do.

During this time, we had our family and small groups from church praying for us. They prayed for us and asked God for a miracle. Many days I didn’t have the words to pray. I would just listen to hymns and worship music as they would be the cries of my heart to the Lord. My prayer for a miracle was that God would take this baby before it was born so that it wouldn’t have to be in pain and the first thing it’s eyes would see would be the face of Jesus. Or I asked that God would heal this baby in my womb and allow it to live.

The day for the ultrasound came. We had peace going into the appointment as we knew that God was in control. This peace was only from God.

“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7

As the ultrasound started, the technician started from the baby’s head and moved down to the baby’s feet. Our technician kept saying everything looks completely healthy and normal! Then the doctor looked at the scans and said our baby is 100% healthy!

I lay there in awe with thanksgiving in my heart for what the Lord had done. The words they kept running through my head were “God is good, and all the time God is good!”

Some have asked/questioned if what they saw on the first ultrasound was wrong. People can believe what they want but I know in the depths of my heart God answered our prayers.

Since the ultrasound, I have been struggling. Struggling with connecting to this baby as I had mentally let go and said goodbye to this child and the life we would of had with him. I’m still working on things and trusting God that this baby is healthy.

At the end of the day my life is not mine, it’s the Lords. Whatever comes our way, I know the Lord is with us and will provide.

Looking back at the past few months, here is what I have learned from it all.

1. God loves us and hears the cries of our hearts

2. He will never leave us or forsake us

3. He is good all the time. Even in the darkest of times.

These three thing have been a constant on my heart through this journey and now into this season of COVID. May you find his peace and joy in the midst of your struggles. He does hear and does answer!

I will leave you with a few lines that have been the cry of my heart in the past few months. May they bless you as have been a blessing to me.

Way Maker by Leeland

You are

Way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper

Light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

You are

Way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper

Light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are.

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